Passed NCLEX... yearning for #RNstatus, still not there yet

After waiting a day longer than some brilliant peers who passed but wrote a day later, I began feeling discouraged. Maybe I didn't pass? Maybe the 75Qs was a bad thing... my discouragement ate at me for two days. Slept with this thing (kara) most of Monday but managed a "win" by getting out and up for soccer that night.

Today I checked the mail, opened the letter, read "you passed" solemnly and stared at the fact that I am still not yet an RN. I became angry and upset, completely overlooking the passing portion of the letter. Even five hours later I feel mute to it...I am content I suppose... but tomorrow is a day filled with people who are all happy and excited about things and I just can't help but feel blehhhhh about that. (I am not excited for the ceremony of graduation...)Hopefully book club tomorrow night will shake my groove.

I thought this would be my last post, but I cannot wait to get the privilege of attaching RN to my name. I am another step closer to it, another leap. This sounds all very pessimistic but I think its a testament to how bittersweet and amazing it will be to finally be able to call myself a registered nurse and make an impact in the areas I wish too. That is why I am pursuing this career. I am soooooooooo excited for that... and yes, passing the NCLEX is a huge accomplishment, so celebrate me and my ol' noggin'

Cheers friends, see some of you tomorrow