May 1 - NCLEX Employment

Jess Crawford
May 1, 2017
2 min read

Well, its been a slice the past few days. Late last week was pretty rough, self-talk was quite negative, despite good self-care. I did lots of apartmardening (#Mimilook)

Saturday I took off and went for a wonderful hike (see what we found below...soooo cool!) and played soccer, really physically exhausted all my fuels. Sunday I started a new week of studying, looking at CV and Oncology to start. Last night I woke up sweating and in a panic that I am not doing enough. I have had comments from people about how awesome and organized I am with my studying, but just so you know, looks can be deceiving. Like how Prostate Cancer can be mistaken for BPH (#hesitancy, dribbling, nocturia, frequency, etc.). I keep trying to find the perfect solution (no not an IV joke) and I honestly don't think there is one. I am doing all I possibly can, and its probably too much. I am ruminating on this stinking exam and the fact that "the worse you feel, the better you are doing!" Soooooo awful, who makes this! It is exhausting trying to feel confident and productive when ultimately, I won't know half of the things thrown at me anyways.

Feels a little helpless. I just cant shake the feeling... its like that feeling before some people get when they public speak, or the nerves/nausea that proceeds a surgery/procedure (#colonoscopy). It. is. relentless. wearing. demoralizing. Anyone have any tips on dealing with anticipation?

Despite not having slept much, I trudged (quite fabulously) through CV medications this AM. Cuddled this sticky-note, and tried to fill in some gaps of Respiratory. Just shutting-er down with some Ben&Jerry's and a brieeeeef overview of specific cancers.

Today, I (re)learned (but have not come to terms with)that there will always be more to learn. There will always be something I don't know. In various words from Klimek, I am learning the basics of what every entry-to-practice nurse needs to know... I do not have to know EVERY detail, EVERY question on the NCLEX. More does not mean better. Got to get back in to that Quality zone #QA.